Semi-Fun/Emotional But Mainly Fun Blog
- Jul 18, 2017
- 4 min read
So as I sit here, July 18, 2017 [Shoutout to the Skipp Whitman Trio], in my half-packed up apartment because I’m moving out in an unknown place in Los Angeles, listening to good old classical music [Chopin, Beethoven, and Wagner], I’m reflecting on Year 26, as well as what Year 27 has in store. I gotta say, life is great. SO great that I haven’t really planned to do anything to bring in my 27th year of life here on Earth. I know it’s surprising, and maybe I’m speaking too soon. Old Co-workers/friends are taking me out Thursday Night. Maybe Friday Night I’ll go out with some friends, co-workers, etc. and have a good time. But I really feel good about doing nothing, because this year was quite alright. I got a job in the video game industry [Not full time, but still, it’s a great job, and I love it]. I’m playing frequent shows with the Skipp Whitman Trio, and it keeps me sane that I’m still playing an instrument and I’m not putting my talent to waste. I even accomplished a portion of my dream and made music for a Sonic the Hedgehog Remix album. Saddleback Church is great, and I’ve met lifetime friends there who are consistently looking out for me and are always down for tacos. Also recently, I had the chance to work at Anime Expo and go to EVO, two fantastic places to be! Now everything isn’t perfect. I still have a half-packed apartment [and by half-packed, I mean like 1/10 packed] that I’m leaving at the end of August because I gotta make cuts back [And Gentrification is real, so rent is being raised more than normal. and I only have 1 job which was my own doing :D] Do I have a guaranteed place to stay come Sept. 1st? Nope. Have I been looking? Yep. Do I have a guaranteed full-time job to make ends meet if I found a place? Nope. Have I started looking? Yep. Am I going insane thinking about how life is gonna change in just under 2 months? Just a little.
What I’m getting at is that even if I’m going though my own little battle, there’s one word that pretty much defines everything I’ve done before Cali leading up to this moment. Risk. The majority of the decisions I’ve made that have led me to having a happy [even though I’m still worried] life up to this moment is risk. It was a risk to leave home for college and go to a college campus where I only knew one person and I was separated from my family 10 hours away [1 Hour 45 minute flight without a layover]. It was a risk to move out to Cali after graduating, knowing only 1 person, not having a job lined up. It was a risk staying in Cali even after I got laid off from my job. It was a risk playing with two guys I had never met before a day in my life. It was a risk becoming a play tester and being worried that I would end up hating video games because of the stories I heard. However, if I had never taken those risks, I wouldn’t be in the position to do even more than I thought of. Don't get me wrong...I still ask for help all of the time. No way I could survive without it. But even asking for help is a risk sometimes. If you know me, I’m sure you’ve heard me say “My ultimate dream is to create music for Sonic the Hedgehog video games.” I may have not done it specifically for a video game, but I’ve done it on an album about him. That’s a start. And after doing that, I’ve had a “What’s Next” mentality that I never thought I would get up until I actually achieved that dream as a whole, which is to become a Community Manager for a video game company. That way I can create content like music for video game companies and bring people together through the love of video games.
So going back to why I’m not really stressing about my 27th Birthday. I don’t really have to make a big fuss about it because Year 26 was a blast. It had ups and downs like every year, but it was cool enough for me to write this post. I’ll probably use my birthday wish on getting a full-time job and an apartment that I can afford to live in/pay off my debts/be responsible, as well as to just pray for all of my friends, family, and everyone who has helped me along the way. I’m slowly but surely achieving my dream, I have cool friends, my faith in God has increased, I’m doing the things that I love without wasting my talent, and I’m taking risks, which is how I got here in the first place. Joy :)
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